“I Don’t Understand, God.”

To be really honest, there are times when I have felt that I am not getting anywhere in life, or in my vocational career as a Bible translator.  It has seemed like many times, we just get moved and settled down into a given location and are at a specific level of my vocation, and then we are uprooted and have to start all over again.

I can say this quite literally, seeing as Jill and I have been married for 27 years now, and in that time we have moved 55 times to live in another residence.  We have lived in 7 Provinces of Canada, 2 States in the USA (multiple times in each), and at least 7 countries from the Americas, to the Pacific Islands and Australia, to Africa.  We have lost count of how many times we have either sold all our belongings to go live somewhere else, or lost our belongings due to sudden moves across the world.

Even now, we can feel discouraged as we look at what is happening.  God did provide a lovely 3 level condo for us in 2008.  A month after we moved in, my symptoms hit and living in the 3 level home became very challenging for me.  So we were led back to buy a simple 1 level condo right across from the hospital where Jill works.  But we need to be released from the first mortgage, and it looks like it would be at quite a loss for us.

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And now God is asking me to move to Dallas in August up through mid-December and Jill will stay back here in Calgary.  We have plans of getting together once or twice in those four months, and we have a number of ways to phone or Skype each other for free so we can talk to each other every day if we want to.  But that does not mean it is going to be easy to do this.

And yet, we see God’s hand in all of these matters.  We fail to understand His will behind some of these things.  But we believe that He orchestrates the important matters of our lives, and our response is to simply obey.  And my optimism and my hope tells me that later on, one day we will look back and be able to see what it was all about.  But for right now, we do what we believe He tells us to do, and leave the whys and the wherefores into His hands.

A friend sent me this recently and I believe that not only does it contain some real wisdom, but even while I was reading it, I saw God use it to minister to me in my current life situation.  See if it might also be speaking directly to you at where you are at.

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P.U.S.H. – and God appeared.

The Lord told the man he had work for him to do, and showed him a large rock in front of his cabin. The Lord explained that the man was to push against the rock with all his might. So, this the man did, day after day. For many years he toiled from sun up to sun down, his shoulders set squarely against the cold, massive surface of the unmoving rock, pushing with all of his might. Each night the man returned to his cabin sore and worn out, feeling that his whole day had been spent in vain.

Since the man was showing discouragement, the Adversary (Satan) decided to enter the picture by placing thoughts into the weary mind: “You have been pushing against that rock for a long time, and it hasn’t moved.” Thus, he gave the man the impression that the task was impossible and that he was a failure. These thoughts discouraged and disheartened the man. Satan said, “Why kill yourself over this? Just put in your time, giving just the minimum effort; and that will be good enough.”

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That’s what the weary man planned to do, but decided to make it a matter of prayer and to take his troubled thoughts to the Lord.  “Lord,” he said, “I have labored long and hard in your service, putting all my strength to do that which you have asked. Yet, after all this time, I have not even budged that rock by half a millimeter. What is wrong? Why am I failing?”

The Lord responded compassionately, “My friend, when I asked you to serve Me and you accepted, I told you that your task was to push against the rock with all of your strength, which you have done. Never once did I mention to you that I expected you to move it. Your task was to push. And now you come to Me with your strength spent, thinking that you have failed. But, is that really so?

Look at yourself. Your arms are strong and muscled, your back sinewy and brown; your hands are callused from constant pressure, your legs have become massive and hard. Through opposition you have grown much, and your abilities now surpass that which you used to have. True, you haven’t moved the rock. But your calling was to be obedient and to push and to exercise your faith and trust in My wisdom. That you have done. Now I, my friend, will move the rock.”

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At times, when we hear a word from God, we tend to use our own intellect to decipher what He wants, when actually what God wants is just a simple obedience and faith in Him. By all means, exercise the faith that moves mountains, but know that it is still God who moves mountains.

When everything seems to go wrong… just P.U.S.H.!

When the job gets you down… just P.U.S.H.!

When people don’t react the way you think they should… just P.U.S.H!

When your money is “gone” and the bills are due… just P.U.S.H!

When people just don’t understand you… just P.U.S.H.

P= Pray

U= Until

S= Something

H= Happens

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